G.I. Joe says knowing is half the battle. Knowledge is also power. But knowledge can also be a seedy bitch. Have you ever wished you could unlearn something so as to remain ignorant to how scarring it is? I do. It has to do with an obsession of mine, My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic. Now I'd seen references to this bit I wish I could forget, but I didn't even know it at the time. Pictures of my favorite pony dressed serving serial killer realness? Sure, that sounds fun! Or so I thought. I'd seen pictures like this and found them amusing.
Little did I know how disturbing it really was. As I was browsing pony memes yesterday, I saw a seemingly benign post for a "Cupcakes Fanfiction" entry. Well. This infamous fanfic by Sargeant Sprinkles is like a whale cock mind rape with acid for lube. There is just something so fucked up about the happiest, most upbeat and lovable character performing Hostile-style torture on another innocent pony for no reason that hurts my soul. It reminds me of how as a child I would cry out of frustration when watching the Nightmare On Elm Street movies. I just couldn't wrap my head around WHY Freddy was so horrible. Give me gore, give me violence, but sometimes I need a reason. The other thing is, part of me LIKED it. I enjoy feeling uncomfortable and angry over a disturbing movie (or book, etc). For instance, Funny Games is some fucked up shit that happens without motivation, but I like how it affects me. Not this. I wish I never learned about it. I wish I could go back. Then of course I had to torment myself with the various interpretations of the story on YouTube.
